Unlocking My Mind: How a Loo Conversion converted me into the artist I have always been

For most of my life, I had a recurring dream that puzzled me deeply. In this dream, I found myself back in kindergarten, struggling to tie my shoelaces. This image repeated itself over and over, even as I aged in real life. I would return to primary school at ages 11, 15, 20, 25, 32, 37, 42, and 45, sitting on tiny chairs, forced to relive my entire educational journey from the very beginning. What made it stranger was that while I aged, my classmates remained the same age. Despite this, I somehow managed to earn a master’s degree decades after primary school. The dream made no sense to me for years.

I am confident I will never have that dream again. The reason is that after many years of confusion about how my brain works, I finally understand it. And the surprising moment of clarity came from an unexpected place: converting the loo setup in my camper van to meet New Zealand’s new freedom camping regulations.

The Strange Connection Between a Loo and My Mind

At first glance, a loo conversion might seem like a mundane task. But for me, it became a doorway to understanding my own brain’s unique wiring. The challenge was to install a toilet in a small camper space while complying with New Zealand’s new green certificate requirements for freedom camping. This meant I had to rethink the space, the materials, and the entire setup.

I approached the problem with iterative problem-solving. I sketched ideas, tested layouts, and used AI tools to simulate different configurations. This process of trial and error, combined with creative thinking, helped me unlock a new way of thinking about problems — including the ones inside my own mind.

Camper van loo conversion

How Iterative Problem-Solving Revealed My Brain’s Architecture

The loo conversion forced me to break down a complex problem into smaller, manageable parts. I had to consider:

• The limited space available

• Plumbing constraints

• Compliance with environmental regulations

• User comfort and hygiene

  
  

Each step required me to think differently, to adapt, and to learn from mistakes. This iterative approach mirrored how my mind works — not in a straight line, but through cycles of reflection, adjustment, and growth.

Before this project, I had never realized that my brain operates with a different architecture. It’s not a flaw or a limitation but a unique wiring that thrives on revisiting old problems with fresh perspectives. This explained why I kept dreaming about going back to school — my mind was always trying to re-learn and reprocess foundational lessons.

And on a darker note - because systems are made for majority brain architectures - I felt ike I cheated the system. Not your typical imposter - an extended director's cut - Imposter x 8.

From Understanding to Artistic Expression

Once I grasped this new understanding of my mind, something shifted. The mental blocks that held me back began to dissolve. Suddenly, I found myself creating poems and sculptures with a freedom and depth I had never experienced before.

The loo conversion was the key that unlocked my creative potential. It taught me that problem-solving and creativity are deeply connected. When I allowed myself to explore ideas without fear of failure, my artistic side suddenly not only appeared but landed like a rocket on the moon.

Practical Lessons from My Experience

If you ever feel stuck or confused about how your mind works, here are some practical takeaways from my journey:

• Embrace iterative problem-solving: Break down challenges into smaller parts and test solutions step by step.

• Use tools to explore ideas: AI or other creative aids can help you visualize and refine your thoughts.

• Revisit old problems with new eyes: Sometimes, going back to basics can reveal hidden insights.

• Be patient with yourself: Understanding your mind takes time and repeated effort.

• Connect practical tasks with creative thinking: Everyday projects can unlock unexpected mental breakthroughs.

• Research! And research again!

  
  

What’s Next?

This experience has opened a new chapter in my life. The connection between a simple loo conversion and my artistic awakening is just the beginning. In my next blog post, I will share how this understanding led me to produce many poems and sculptures, transforming my creative process completely.

For now, I invite you to reflect on your own challenges. Sometimes, the key to unlocking your mind lies in the most unexpected places.